At one of my last appointment on May 2nd the doctor said I need to slow down and stop working so much, he said I should at least quit one job right now because "it will all catch up with you" I think I will be fine. I want to work until the end of May and I am set on working my hardest until than. My jobs aren't hard and I don't lift anything or get tired out while working, so I don't think "it will catch up with me" The only hard part is the days I get less than 7 hours of sleep, that's when I just want to cry like a baby because I'm just so tired.. we all know I don't though. I only have about 9 shifts of work left and I will begin my year as a stay at home mommy!
We had a little scare at my latest doctor visit yesterday... After the doctor felt my tummy to check the baby's position, he checked the heart rate which was really high. Normally a baby's heart rate should be between120 - 160 and my baby's was 180. From the clinic a nurse escorted me to the labor room where they monitored the baby's heart beat for about 20 minutes. The doctor came in and said he would like me to drink a lot of fluids and come back in the morning. So today I went back and they baby's heart rate was around 150 (which is good and normal). They would like to check the baby's heart rate one more time on Sunday, so I will go again on Sunday. I am hoping is was just because I was dehydrated and nothing more than that.
While they were checking the baby's heart rate they had to turn the machine away from me because my heart rate kept going up every time I'd see my baby's little heart shoot up to 180 and then drop to 140. It was so overwhelming to not know what was wrong and to not be able to protect my baby. I'm glad Chauna knows me better than I know myself because although I told her she didn't have to come and that I was fine, she came anyways and I felt a lot better with her there.
Everything else has been perfectly fine though! I've been "nesting" at home. Which means cleaning and organizing like a crazy person when you know the baby is suppose to come home soon. I vacuumed and steam cleaned my carpets, moved my room around so that there's more space, threw out old clothes and put all the baby's stuff away in his/her dresser. I also have my diaper bag ready to go to the hospital, along with my own hospital bag. I ment to do dishes, sweep, mop and clean the bathroom today but I ended up having a 3 hour nap and then it was time for me to go to work. Tomorrow I'll do it perhaps.
Lately I feel a lot of anxiety when I'm left alone and especially when Frazer goes out. I think I'm scared to go into labor and be alone and not be able to get a hold of anyone. Sometimes I just feel bad for everything, children crying, dogs walking, littering.... The doctor said it's normal to feel like that in the last month, to not feel hungry or not want to do anything but he said it's important to have people around that you enjoy and to try to keep your mind busy with other things. So that is what I will do. I've never been one to show my feelings, but I am happy Frazer is noticing my anxiety and starting to stay home with me more often or asking me if I just want to go with him (I usually do!)
So besides being a emotional train wreck, nesting and caring a baby who likes to scare his mommy, I am doing just fine! No stretch marks still and no massive weight gain which is always a plus to feel good about your body while making a body. I really can't complain about anything, I have so much support and love from me and Frazer's family and friends. Frazer has been more than I can ask for during this pregnancy. He always makes sure my favorite snacks are at home and the fridge always has orange juice in it. He just takes care of all my needs for me, which is probably why I have felt close to zero stress through this whole adventure.
I am 36 weeks & 3 days which means I have 3 weeks & 4 days (25 days) until my due date.
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