Only Days Away...

My last day of work today! Woo! I could not be more happy about it. Some days have been pretty hard to go to work, but I am glad I pushed through it and I. am. done. All my hard work now means for the next year I will get to stay home with my baby and watch Levi grow and not have to worry about financial problems. I've never been so proud of myself and for the FIRST time in my life I will not have to worry about school or a job. Aaaa I love it!
At my last doctors appointment my baby's heart is still high for no apparent reason. So I had to get blood work done and also give a urine sample which came back normal. At my appointment today, after checking the baby's heart beat, the doctor send me for an emergency ultrasound because the baby's heart rate was above 170. Everything in the ultrasound was normal and Levi was too cute in some weird yoga position, with his feet tucked up to his tummy and ALL his fingers in his mouth sucking away without a care in the world. I cant wait to just hold him and love him up.

I'm so ready to have this baby already, I'm tired of the waiting game. Frazer is getting anxious too, I'm happy he is excited about becoming a dad and he such an amazing man. He has been telling the baby for the past couple days that "it's okay to come out now" haha he makes me laugh everyday.

Chauna took maternity pictures for me yesterday, she drew little feet on my tummy, we wrote "38 Weeks" across my belly, it was all pretty fun and I am happy I will have pictures of my big ol' tummy.  We also went to Northmart and we just HAD to look in the baby section! There was a Moses basket which I instantly fell inlove with, a cute little giraffe blanket... It would have been nice to buy either blues or pinks, but soon enough I will find out. In a few ways I am happy I couldn't find out because I am lot more excited for the surprise. I will honestly be really surprised though if the doctor announces "It's a Girl!" 

I've decided that after the baby comes I would like to stay at my parents house for a few days just to get the hang of being a new mom, also it will be easier for me to not have to worry about cooking dinner, cleaning up a whole house, feeding a new baby and caring for it. Also it will be easier for people to visit me at my parents house then it is at my apartment. I know Frazer doesn't really want to and I feel a bit bad for taking his new baby and staying somewhere where he isn't as comfortable, but he's going to have to just get use to it. We are both going to have to just get use to a lot of things...

  

 

 Today I am 38 weeks and 2 days pregnant which means I have 1 week and 5 days until my due date (12 days!) 

 

The Last Month!

At one of my last appointment on May 2nd the doctor said I need to slow down and stop working so much, he said I should at least quit one job right now because "it will all catch up with you" I think I will be fine. I want to work until the end of May and I am set on working my hardest until than. My jobs aren't hard and I don't lift anything or get tired out while working, so I don't think "it will catch up with me" The only hard part is the days I get less than 7 hours of sleep, that's when I just want to cry like a baby because I'm just so tired.. we all know I don't though. I only have about 9 shifts of work left and I will begin my year as a stay at home mommy! 

We had a little scare at my latest doctor visit yesterday... After the doctor felt my tummy to check the baby's position, he checked the heart rate which was really high. Normally a baby's heart rate should be between120 - 160 and my baby's was 180. From the clinic a nurse escorted me to the labor room where they monitored the baby's heart beat for about 20 minutes. The doctor came in and said he would like me to drink a lot of fluids and come back in the morning. So today I went back and they baby's heart rate was around 150 (which is good and normal). They would like to check the baby's heart rate one more time on Sunday, so I will go again on Sunday. I am hoping is was just because I was dehydrated and nothing more than that.
While they were checking the baby's heart rate they had to turn the machine away from me because my heart rate kept going up every time I'd see my baby's little heart shoot up to 180 and then drop to 140. It was so overwhelming to not know what was wrong and to not be able to protect my baby. I'm glad Chauna knows me better than I know myself because although I told her she didn't have to come and that I was fine, she came anyways and I felt a lot better with her there. 

Everything else has been perfectly fine though! I've been "nesting" at home. Which means cleaning and organizing like a crazy person when you know the baby is suppose to come home soon. I vacuumed and steam cleaned my carpets, moved my room around so that there's more space, threw out old clothes and put all the baby's stuff away in his/her dresser. I also have my diaper bag ready to go to the hospital, along with my own hospital bag. I ment to  do dishes, sweep, mop and clean the bathroom today but I ended up having a 3 hour nap and then it was time for me to go to work. Tomorrow I'll do it perhaps. 

Lately I feel a lot of anxiety when I'm left alone and especially when Frazer goes out. I think I'm scared to go into labor and be alone and not be able to get a hold of anyone. Sometimes I just feel bad for everything, children crying, dogs walking, littering.... The doctor said it's normal to feel like that in the last month, to not feel hungry or not want to do anything but he said it's important to have people around that you enjoy and to try to keep your mind busy with other things. So that is what I will do. I've never been one to show my feelings, but I am happy Frazer is noticing my anxiety and starting to stay home with me more often or asking me if I just want to go with him (I usually do!) 

So besides being a emotional train wreck, nesting and caring a baby who likes to scare his mommy, I am doing just fine! No stretch marks still and no massive weight gain which is always a plus to feel good about your body while making a body. I really can't complain about anything, I have so much support and love from me and Frazer's family and friends. Frazer has been more than I can ask for during this pregnancy. He always makes sure my favorite snacks are at home and the fridge always has orange juice in it. He just takes care of all my needs for me, which is probably why I have felt close to zero stress through this whole adventure. 


I am 36 weeks & 3 days which means I have 3 weeks & 4 days (25 days) until my due date.

Questions!

How did you find out you were pregnant?  

I went to emergency because the pregnancy test I took didn't work.

What kind of Pregnancy test did you take?  

I peed on a stick... I don't know what brand it was

How many? 

Just 1

What were your 1st symptoms?   

Non-stop puking and always tired

Who did you tell first?  

Amber

Who was with you when you found out?   

The nurses at the hospital and I was texting Amber the whole time

My 1st reaction: 

very overwhelmed, confused, scared

Was your baby planned? 

No

When was the baby conceived? 

Sometime between September 15 - 23

How far were you when you found out? 

I was about 6 weeks along

How did your parents react?

A bit upset because they would have liked me to finish school and have a career going before I had a baby - They are happy and excited now tho.

My baby

Due Date:  

June 12, 2013

Do you know the sex?   

No, but I tried to find out TWICE

Any names? 

The only named agreed upon has been Levi - Boy or girl, rain or shine.

Any Ultrasounds? 

I've had 3 so far. First one was when I was 10 weeks, than when I was 18 weeks and at 20 weeks

Have you heard the heart beat?  

Many times! Best sound in the world.

Who do you think it will look like?  

I'm not sure, I'm hoping like Frazer because little brown abo babies are the cutest!

Will the baby have siblings?   

Nope

Have you felt the baby move? 

Seems like he doesn't stop moving

Miscellaneous

Did you have morning sickness? 

For almost the first 5 months. One of the hardest things I've probably had to struggle through in my life. I would do it all over again tho to be right back where I am today.

Did you have any cravings?

Uhm, I love Orange Juice and chips. Some days I crave burgers tho or pizza.

Did you have any mood swings?

I don't think I do... I feel very clingy tho. I don't like to be alone and sometimes I feel sad for no reason when I'm alone.

Are you a high risk pregnancy? 

Nope, I am having a very happy and healthy pregnancy.

Any complications? 

No

Formula or Breastfeeding? 

I am going to breastfeed. It is the best thing for the baby.

Have you bought anything for the baby yet?   

Lol, what haven't I bought for the baby yet is a better question

When did you start to show? 

In January I started getting my cute little bump

How long could you wear your regular clothes? 

I'm still wearing my regular clothes... jeans and all

Will you keep the baby’s clothes? 

Some of them because I am a sentimental person, I will defiantly be keeping the baby's coming home outfit.

Home or Hospital?  

Hospital. There is no way in hell I am going through labor without any medication. 

Natural or Medicated birth?  

I want the epidural.

Who will be in the delivery room with you? 

I want Frazer in the room, but he doesn't want to be, also I need Chauna in the room.

Do you think you will need a C-section? 

I don't think I will because the baby has already in birthing position (I am aware that he can turn whenever he wants) but at the same time my mom had to have a c-section with me because I was breech

Will you cry when you hold the baby for the 1st time? 

Haha I was wondering the same thing, I never cry but I've never had my own baby handed to me before either 

What’s the 1st thing you might say to the baby?   

I'm not really sure, probably start with a "Hello" or a "Hi Baby!"  seems appropriate...

Will you let anyone video tape the birth? 

Eff that. This is suppose to be one of the most painful things to go through, why would I want to relive it?

Are you excited?   

This dumb and quite obvious question, of course I am. 

Who will help you with the baby after the birth?

Chauna and Jay, Frazer and I'm sure his mom will want to be around to help a lot too.

What is your favorite thing about being pregnant?  

Feeling the baby move, my silky long hair and nice finger nails

What is the worst thing about being pregnant?  

Feeling large, morning sickness, peeing all of the time, migraines, sweaty feet, lots more hair on my legs, armpits, and belly and pregnancy brain

What’s one thing you miss doing since being pregnant? 

I really miss skidooing... 

Any days you wish you were not pregnant? 

Nope, if anything, I think I am going to miss being pregnant.

Are you ready for a baby?

Ya, I am now. I've had the time to mentally prepare for it and get myself organized and ready for as much as I can.

How many kids do you want?

I've always said I wanted 3, but I will see how this one goes. I know I want at least one more.

Do you talk to the baby?

Once in a while... I ask him what he is doing in the there when I can feel him really moving around, I tell him its okay after doctor appointments because they really squeeze my tummy to feel him and I assume he doesn't like it and I am always rubbing him and giving him massages. Do you still feel attractive?

Some days I think I look fine and others days I feel like a whale.

Have you had your baby shower yet?

No

Do you like kids?

Ya

How far along are you now? 

35 weeks!