I've Lost My Mind.

I have the worst pregnancy brain. I easily forget anything and everything. The other night at work I called a cab to go home, waited for the cab, walked outside to get in the cab and then realized my truck was parked outside. I've also forgotten to pick Tamara up at work and she usually has to remind me to not forget about her. I forget my keys, phone and wallet on a regular basis. Sometimes when I'm driving, I get to my house, park the vehicle and remember that I had a bunch of things to do before I went home. Speaking of driving, my driving has gone to shit these days, I am always nervous about driving. Frazer has found the pizza cuter, cereal and other weird things the fridge. Sometimes I'll ask or say something to him and then say the same thing a few minutes later and he'll tell me "you just told me that...." I think its worse when he doesn't tell me and just answers the question for the second time, he must feel like he is dealing with a crazy person. 

Also I've been having weird dreams. Last night I had a dream that I had my baby on April 15th and I was upset because my baby wasn't a Gemini, I also felt guilty because he was so small and had troubles breathing. And then Chauna also named my baby and I didn't like the name... it was just a series of unfortunate events. The other night I dreamt' that two of my babies were dogs and we had a third baby which we forgot at the hospital for so long that they named her. While driving home the dogs turned into babies and they were all really cute and I loved them. People were shocked saying "Sarah, I thought you only had 1 kid" It was weird. Also their names were Levi, Cassy and Stacey, Frazer and I were going to change Levi's name to something else so we could change Stacey's name to Levi because we didn't like her name. 

Besides losing my mind I've been doing really well. Pregnancy has been treating me good after I got through the really hard first 5 months. I thought about it today and it doesn't even phase me, I'd puke my guts up, starve and have wicked head aches all over again for my baby if I had to. Its strange to think of the fact that I am head over heals in love with someone I haven't even met yet and how I would be so heart broken if anything were to happen to my baby. It really is a different kind of love, there just are not enough words to express it. 
I've been losing quite a bit of energy, even standing for "O'Canada" in the morning feels like a loooong time to be standing. I can honestly fall asleep at any given opportunity, as long as its the appropriate place and time, I will sleep. I can have long naps in the day and have no problem going back to bed at night. I am still not uncomfortable yet, except the trips to the washroom in the middle of the night have began. 

Oh yes, I got to see my baby again at a doctors appointment. It was so neat! The doctor came in with his laptop and a microphone looking thing and rubbed gel all over my tummy. He had a program on his laptop that allowed us to see the baby. The baby was already upside down, with his head in my pelvic bone (birth position) and his knees tucked up to his tummy. His little hands were resting on his cheek and the other one across his chest. He was so perfect.