I have the worst pregnancy brain. I easily forget anything and everything. The other night at work I called a cab to go home, waited for the cab, walked outside to get in the cab and then realized my truck was parked outside. I've also forgotten to pick Tamara up at work and she usually has to remind me to not forget about her. I forget my keys, phone and wallet on a regular basis. Sometimes when I'm driving, I get to my house, park the vehicle and remember that I had a bunch of things to do before I went home. Speaking of driving, my driving has gone to shit these days, I am always nervous about driving. Frazer has found the pizza cuter, cereal and other weird things the fridge. Sometimes I'll ask or say something to him and then say the same thing a few minutes later and he'll tell me "you just told me that...." I think its worse when he doesn't tell me and just answers the question for the second time, he must feel like he is dealing with a crazy person.
Also I've been having weird dreams. Last night I had a dream that I had my baby on April 15th and I was upset because my baby wasn't a Gemini, I also felt guilty because he was so small and had troubles breathing. And then Chauna also named my baby and I didn't like the name... it was just a series of unfortunate events. The other night I dreamt' that two of my babies were dogs and we had a third baby which we forgot at the hospital for so long that they named her. While driving home the dogs turned into babies and they were all really cute and I loved them. People were shocked saying "Sarah, I thought you only had 1 kid" It was weird. Also their names were Levi, Cassy and Stacey, Frazer and I were going to change Levi's name to something else so we could change Stacey's name to Levi because we didn't like her name.
Besides losing my mind I've been doing really well. Pregnancy has been treating me good after I got through the really hard first 5 months. I thought about it today and it doesn't even phase me, I'd puke my guts up, starve and have wicked head aches all over again for my baby if I had to. Its strange to think of the fact that I am head over heals in love with someone I haven't even met yet and how I would be so heart broken if anything were to happen to my baby. It really is a different kind of love, there just are not enough words to express it.
I've been losing quite a bit of energy, even standing for "O'Canada" in the morning feels like a loooong time to be standing. I can honestly fall asleep at any given opportunity, as long as its the appropriate place and time, I will sleep. I can have long naps in the day and have no problem going back to bed at night. I am still not uncomfortable yet, except the trips to the washroom in the middle of the night have began.
Oh yes, I got to see my baby again at a doctors appointment. It was so neat! The doctor came in with his laptop and a microphone looking thing and rubbed gel all over my tummy. He had a program on his laptop that allowed us to see the baby. The baby was already upside down, with his head in my pelvic bone (birth position) and his knees tucked up to his tummy. His little hands were resting on his cheek and the other one across his chest. He was so perfect.
After 31 weeks, the baby puts a strain on your immune system and it makes it very easy for you to get sick.. and at my 31 weeks mark, guess who is sicker than a dog? I have a wicked cold and I don't want to take any medication for it because I don't want to harm my baby so I am suffering through it. I've tried all natural remedies, honey, lime and tea to drink and I've been sucking on Halls but I still feel like s**t. Frazer suggested that I put a onion by my bed because he read about that old wives tale that it sucks up at the virus. I have nothing to lose so now I have 2 onions by my bed and I must say when I woke up in the middle of the night I was happy to find that I could breath through my nose. Pretty cool!
The baby has become quite aggressive with his/her kicks and sometimes they even jolt me out of place. I still have no idea when this kid gets his 14 hours of sleep, he sleeps for 2 hours at the MOST every now and than. Frazer calls him my 12 alarm clock because as soon as midnight hits he non-stop moves around and kicks and he will still be awake in the middle of the night and when I get up in the morning. He sleeps for a bit when I'm at work and is back up again by lunch time, but they say an active baby is a healthy baby so kick away child.
I'm pretty sure I started feeling a couple braxton hicks contractions, all they are is your muscles tightening for about 30 seconds and they happen just at random, it's nothing to worry about said the internet... haha I also started to be able to feel the position of the baby. I am pretty sure he is upside down (they way he is suppose to be) I feel his kicks at the top of my tummy and he likes to stick his bum out which usually I feel in the middle of my tummy or on the right side.
I can't believe that I only have about 8 weeks left to go until I get to meet my little bundle of joy. I am happy I've kept busy with 2 jobs this whole time, it really has made time fly also it has put a nice amount of money into saving for when I wont be working. I am going to do my best to get another 6 to 7 weeks of work in before I become a stay at home mom. I wonder if I'll get bored staying home all the time? I'll have to find a hobby of some sort I think. I've never had a hobby because I get bored of things very easily and end up not wanting to do it anymore. For example, I started scrapping booking my own baby album... 3 or 4 years ago and I haven't touched it since.
I do my best not to complain about being pregnant or try to be a drama queen about it, but here is a list of not so nice thing about being pregnant:
- Hair grows fast and thick...every where. And I am talking about on my tummy (I know what you were thinking I was getting to) I have a layer of fuzzy fur on my tummy and I think it looks awful.
- You can't shave your hairy ape legs after 30 weeks.
- Sometimes its days before you poop.
- You will feel like a broken record when answering people's questions about your pregnancy...When are you due? Do you know what you're having? Are you uncomfortable yet? & How are YOU? << what they are really asking is the previous three questions.
- There are moments when you just want to say "f--k it, I'm pregnant." and just sleep.
- Holding your pee is not an option.
- Google has saved me from many trips to the ER because I am constantly worrying about something.
- If you don't drink enough water you will feel like camel lost in the desert on a very hot day.
- Speaking of hot day, everyday feels like a hot day to your feet.
- Ever felt like you were outgrowing your ribs? Well you will when your ego is prego.
10 more weeks to go & I won't have to share my body anymore!
I went out to our family's cabin on Thursday and it was really nice to be out in the bush, getting fresh air. I ended up on a skidoo by Friday afternoon...I just couldn't resist any longer. The baby didn't move much while on the skidoo, but kicked a lot when I got off. Who knows what that means. I went for a little journey with Chauna and Jay to get wood with the skidoo but I felt pretty useless just sitting there watching. I wanted to help but I got yelled at every time I tried to pick up a log and bring it to the sled. Chauna would say "I don't want you to hurt that baby! Quit picking up heavy things." I may be 30 weeks pregnant, but I sure don't act like it. I still try to do the things I would normally do, climbing up on chairs to reach things, picking up heavy things, skidooing, crawling around on the floor to pick things up. I've always been an independent person and I'd rather not ask for help to do things that I know I could do if I didn't have this tummy going on. Ah, soon enough though.
On Sunday, Frazer and I drove to Aklavik for his races which he came in 2nd for one race and 3rd in another. It was really nice to spend time with his side of the family and see him race for the first time. I never realized how much work goes into getting ready for a race until after I saw this one.
On another note, I just want to say how awful I think it is that moms go out drinking shortly after their baby is born. When a women gets knocked up they should realize its not just a 9 month term than they can pass off their baby to whoever is willing to babysit. It's a life long commitment that you make the moment you find out you are pregnant. I am so happy I didn't get pregnant before or around the time I was legally aloud to drink and I was able to get it all out of my system. I don't find sitting at bar, yelling over music to talk and blurring nights appealing anymore, it all just seems like a waste of time and money now that I am preparing to be a mom.
Time is so precious you are growing and learning and I don't want to miss one little thing when it comes to my baby.
Shaving my legs has become quite the work-out these days, but there is no way in hell I am allowing my legs to get gross and hairy. Also bending down has become kind of difficult, but I manage. On the plus side I am loving my long shiny hair, my finger nails are looking nice too and there are no site of stretch marks, yet. I
am feeling pretty good these days, not getting sick anymore and I haven't got a wicked headache in awhile either. Pregnancy is so enjoyable when you're body isn't looking too damaged and you feel like you could join a track team.
