I find it strange now when I say "Hi" to someone they no longer look at my face and their eyes go straight to my tummy... and they think I don't notice. I also find it irritating when people beat around the bush, fishing for answers about my pregnancy. JUST ASK. I'm not going to be affended by a simple "Are you pregnant?"
I think my baby got a little stressed from all the noise last night haha, later on in the night when people started getting loud and such and I had to raise my voice, there was an instint pull feeling in my tummy and all of a sudden the side of my stomach got really hard and it just stayed there for the rest of the night. The feeling finally stoped when Frazer rubbed my tummy for a bit. Poor thing.
People keep saying "I bet you can't wait to drink" or "You're probably really bored, huh?" No, acctually I'm not and I can wait to drink. When my baby comes I don't want to miss one moment of anything with him. I want to be there for all his first and I want to be the one to teach him new things. There were many times when I was a child and my mom wasn't there to watch and see me. Now I'm not saying I had a bad childhood or I wasn't given attention because I was definitely loved, but there were many simple little things that I wanted my mom to be there for and she just wasn't, most of the time it was due to drinking. I never want my child to feel like I did, truely hurt and upset because of anything I did. There is no reason I can't read a bed time story to him every night, or be at ever school event that matters to him, and learn and grow with him.
I'm starting to wonder if Frazer and I are still in the "honeymoon" phase of our relationship or if this is just how well we get along and understand each other. We never have serious arguments and we laugh and goof around through out the whole day. If this is as good as it gets, I would be perfectly fine with that.
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