So my ultrasound was yesterday and I was so excited to find out if Levi is a boy or girl.... I still don't know! Levi was too busy playing with his toes to care what we were doing. The ultrasound tech tried to move the camera between Levi's legs and he just kicked them around and turned over onto his tummy. The umbilical cord was also resting between his legs so we couldn't see, but it was so amazing to see a little life inside of me moving around and playing away and also special because I was able to share the moment with Frazer. Levi is very healthy tho and so am I, so I might not have another ultrasound and just have to be surprised in the labor room.
I started making baby slippers the other day and they are coming along quite nicely. I can't wait for the baby stuff I ordered from eBay to come in already! I ask Chauna to check the mail everyday in hopes that something exciting will be there for me, so far there's nothing.
Today Levi had hick ups...it was like someone softly bumping my tummy... every 2 minutes. It was so cute, but I felt bad for him, poor thing couldn't get rid of them, just like Frazer.
I am so thankful for a healthy baby and as everyday goes by I fall more in love and attached to my little sea monkey.
I woke up this morning to find a little arm or leg poking out from my tummy, I feel little bumps and nuges every now and than. Frazer can't wait until he can start feeling the baby move around and he is quite pleased with how big my tummy is getting every week. He said it's okay for me for find out what we are having at the next ultrasound, I'm so excited! Chauna wants to come to the next ultasound too, I'm happy she is being so supportive and wants to know everything going on with the baby. It's comforting to know you have a happy stable family to bring a new life into.
I've been ording lots on ebay, I'm so addicted. I ordered cute little frog slippers for the baby, a hat and carrier. I'm going to order a crib/play pen by the end of the month and other furniture too. I want everything to be ready and not have to worry about anything when I am further into my pregnancy. I'm also going to be ordering new living room furniture, the furniture we have now is kind of ugly, our couch has been soaked in Baby Duck and has seen enough drunk people to last a couch lifetime, it's time for a new one. Also Tamara was nice enough to donate her side table for the TV stand, since a rhino completely destroyed our last one and Joeseph used his lovely artistic skills to carve "Fuzzy" on our coffee table, I think everyone in the house is ready for a nice new living room to go with the nice new human soon to be coming into the home as well.
For my New Year Resolution I think I've decided to keep up with my house cleaning, save money, and learn to cook. I'm kind of looking forward to going back to my day job and starting a routine, even though I will always enjoy sleeping all day with Frazer. I want to start getting rid of things I don't need or don't use anymore, but it's hard cause I'm a mini hoarder. I like to keep little junk things because of how I got it, or who gave it to me, or I MIGHT use it one day... I might just have to close my eyes and just throw it away, get it over with haha. Right now I have two dressers, two shelfs and a closet all in my room full of just my stuff, I need to make room for the baby's things and Frazer's things, it will be hard, but I can do it.
Also I think the emotional hormones are starting to set in, sometimes I watch things, or think of somehing and I get really upset. Mainly when I watch movies that are about someone losing a person they love, or if I see something with animials being hurt, sometimes I just have to think of something sad and tears well up in my eyes. I feel stupid when it happens because I never cry over silly things like a fake movie, but I just can't help it.
Ah, but everything in my life is going just fine, I have a happy family, the best of friends and I couldn't ask anything more of my boyfriend, PLUS a growing healthy little abo baby who I can't wait to meet.
I find it strange now when I say "Hi" to someone they no longer look at my face and their eyes go straight to my tummy... and they think I don't notice. I also find it irritating when people beat around the bush, fishing for answers about my pregnancy. JUST ASK. I'm not going to be affended by a simple "Are you pregnant?"
I think my baby got a little stressed from all the noise last night haha, later on in the night when people started getting loud and such and I had to raise my voice, there was an instint pull feeling in my tummy and all of a sudden the side of my stomach got really hard and it just stayed there for the rest of the night. The feeling finally stoped when Frazer rubbed my tummy for a bit. Poor thing.
People keep saying "I bet you can't wait to drink" or "You're probably really bored, huh?" No, acctually I'm not and I can wait to drink. When my baby comes I don't want to miss one moment of anything with him. I want to be there for all his first and I want to be the one to teach him new things. There were many times when I was a child and my mom wasn't there to watch and see me. Now I'm not saying I had a bad childhood or I wasn't given attention because I was definitely loved, but there were many simple little things that I wanted my mom to be there for and she just wasn't, most of the time it was due to drinking. I never want my child to feel like I did, truely hurt and upset because of anything I did. There is no reason I can't read a bed time story to him every night, or be at ever school event that matters to him, and learn and grow with him.
I'm starting to wonder if Frazer and I are still in the "honeymoon" phase of our relationship or if this is just how well we get along and understand each other. We never have serious arguments and we laugh and goof around through out the whole day. If this is as good as it gets, I would be perfectly fine with that.
